Forced to smile.

I always thought that my passion towards mathematics would be so strong, that even complicated and head-cracking problems couldn't hurt me. But now, I'm really facing a serious dilemma. There's this subject where it's bloody hell HARD. First week of class and I'm kinda lost in the maze. I find it really hard to kinda link up whatever the professor is talking about. Damn! I really hate myself when I'm in such a situation. Making things worse, I'm now taking the course on my own, not knowing anyone in the class. So, now, besides understanding the whole course, I have to try and make friends, or I might end up really losing myself halfway. Oh, how did I come all the way until this? Dealing with my two worst nightmare both at a time? That's really tough. Even harder than getting an A+ in any course. I guess all I can do is pray to God that I could make some sense out of this course before any test comes up. Please help me.

Helplessly praying,
S.

Oh yea, did I mention that I've quit from my previous job as a salad worker? Nah, nothing bad happened, just that the work shifts couldn't fit well with my class schedule. =) But, I got myself another job, at the marketplace around campus. Tomorrow will be my first day working as a dishwasher. Not really excited tho, because I've shifts on Saturday and that ruins my mood to enjoy during the weekend. Haha.
First week of class has ended really quickly. I have a tight schedule this semester, with classes from 9.30am to 3.30pm, with short breaks in between, of course. Less quizzes this semester, compared to the previous semester, where I have 2 quizzes on Friday. This semester probably would end up rushing my homeworks, I guess. Anyway, happy studying, peeps!! & I really miss everyone back in Miri. =)

Loves some time alone,
S