Is there a reason for everything?

B.O.R.E.D.

I'm gonna kill myself sooner or later. I've plenty of work to be done, but here I am, randomly doing nothing. I'm even watching shows that I'm not interested in. Damn! Life is just so boring. Spring is here, and in the blink of an eye, summer would be here too! And I would then complain about the heat and sun. I couldn't bear sweating at all. I stayed at home during winter because it's just too cold. Then during summer, I would stay at home as well, because I hate the heat. I love the sun, the warmth, but nah, not sweating. Summer would be a big challenge for me. I've gotten real chubby for the past few years. And summer demands for shorts and tanks. And I'm so not in the situation right now. =( Drop dead. And I think I've narcolepsy. Or my bed is just too comfortable. I need help. ASAP. I need to get out there. But with what I am now, I don't have the confidence. I need time, but it seems like I'm not going to get any. Life is supposed to be full of hope, but I've learnt that, with hope, then comes despair. So I started to live without hope, only dreams, which I know well enough, that would never come through. Oh my! I'm full of negative vibes now. I tried watching comedy to cheer myself up, but it makes me look more pathetic. I've everything I wanted, plenty, but nothing is right. IDK! Sad case. I'll have some scientists to do research on my life, hoping that they will come out with an explanation of what's actually going on. Till then, I would be an empty soul, hanging on... ....