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In less than ten hours, I will be having my calculus3 test 2. I don't know why, but I could feel a very heavy pressure on me. I don't know where the pressure is coming from, and I don't like it at all. Well, no one is giving me the pressure, or am i pushing myself too hard? Erm..I don't think so...I'm like still slacking off sometimes. I just couldn't get my mind straight to memorize the formulas and understand the theories. I kinda feel suffocated. I don't understand...I couldn't get the curves straight, is it a plane curve of a space curve. Is it me the only one who faces problem in this subject or others do too? I'm really lost whenever I have to face this subject. But, shouldn't I'm supposed to excel in the subject, since it's my major, right? Fuh...I'm really vy vy depressed now. For one, I couldn't solve the questions; for two, I just don't like the feeling of unable to solve the questions.
Ps: Guys, don't bother to read this post, as it's just me talking to myself away late at night. I'll just bear the hardship myself, and I believe I can. =) I'm not going to disappoint people having high hopes on me, especially my daddy and mummy. All these are just challenges in my life, and without them, I wouldn't enjoy the success in the end. Have faith in God.