It.

I need help. I couldn't deal with this myself anymore. I couldn't bear to face it anymore. I'm so disappointed with myself. Such a weak fellow I am, with such weak discipline. I've tried for so many times, but still I failed. Sometimes I might just shut myself from the outside world, hide myself underneath my blanket, and let the world go on without me. I know I could do anything if only I have the faith to do so, but not this one. Even faith couldn't help at this moment. I'm in pain. I'm suffering. I couldn't hold on too long anymore. No one could help me. I know that I need to overcome this one. I have given up too much things just because of this problem. It's ruining my life. It's crumbling my life into small bits. It's destroying my life.

In despair,
S.